DC Young Fly is still reeling from the death of his partner Jacky Oh one month after her passing.

The Wild ‘N Out star opened up about his grief, explaining that although he puts on a strong front for their kids Nova, 6, Nala, 2, and Prince’Nehemiah, 10 months, he is heartbroken behind closed doors as he continues to mourn the loss of the 33-year-old.

“God is the greatest,” he told TMZ during an outing in New York City June 28. “He’s granting me the strength to keep going. I gotta take care of my babies. That’s the key to life. Just gotta keep going, stay prayed up and never let the tragedies and the stuff that you going through bring you down.”

However, DC noted that it’s “human” to show emotion during a difficult time—and he is no exception.

“I think people want to see me cry,” the 31-year-old continued. “I’m just not going to record myself crying and show you I’m crying.”

He added, “I cry all the time.”